Don't Call Me No More, Don't Text Me No More

i was seriously debating on whether i want to write about these things that have been on my mind today...
but what the heck, let's air it out...
i can't stand when people want to know about my life but are basically too dumb to realize that they can ask me because it's my life and i think that i am probably the one with all the right answers to any questions that you might have...

and another part to this issue is kind of a past issue that brings up another issue...
but i'll get into that later...

if you're supposed to be my friend and you have my phone number...
why not just use it???
why do you have to go to everybody else to ask about me???
i don't understand that...
especially when you want to know about an event that's going to be held at my home and you think that you can come...
i'm just gonna say that if you're not invited don't come...
and if you're too stupid to realize that you probably need to talk to me in the event that you think you might show up at my house...
you know, just to give me a warning...
and if you can't talk/visit me unless you want to use me then just flat out forget you know me because that's foul...

now to my friends who have suffered having to play secretary or messenger to these foolish fools who have clearly mistaken you for me...
i'm sorry that that ignorance was placed upon you...
but you didn't have to deal with it...
when it comes to matters of my life...
especially ones that you're not involved in...
direct any inquirers to me...
don't make up a story or try to give an excuse...
just simply direct them to me and i promise i can fix any confusion...
and don't let their constant pestering make you become a pest yourself and place yourself in an area where you don't belong...
i don't like pressure and i don;t like my decision making process being messed with...
i am grown and i know how to choose things for myself...
don't become a menace and make things uncomfortable because i don't so that to you...
just let it be and let it work itself out...
curiousity killed the cat as the old saying goes...
so just keep that in mind when getting in the middle where you shouldn't be...
also remember to send any of these lost children to me =]

i don't want to come off mean or possibly crazy to anybody who decides to read this because i know that it seems a bit much...
and could possibly come off as mean but i'm just going to put it like this...

honesty is the best policy!!!

~ab~

Well...and...so...basically...

so i thought that a blog was a place to vent but i guess i was mistaken

my last post was how i was feeling and partially still am

i guess people unconsciouly play a role in that and are too wrapped up in (???) to realize it

but i'm not going into that

or into detail in this post for that matter

i just wanted to say that while my hopes for this summer look bright

my eyes are wide open and full of optimism

it may turn out a little hazy and gray

but hopefully my dreams will become a reality

and all doubts will fade away

i leave school tomorrow on that long journey home

i'm mucho excited about it and can't wait

too bad i'll be back in this loser-ish state before i get back home good

graduations are momentous occasions but suck and are boring as hell haha

congrats to the college class of 2009 =]

i don't really have much to say today

i just caught a case of boredom and something was bothering me

but like i said before

i'm NOT going into detail in this post

or at all actually

i don't feel like dealing with the stress and frustrations

every pair of eyes perceives the world in a different way

and 9 times out of 10 they won't ever see things the same way

so its no point of even going into depth

let's just leave this one shallow

all i have to say is that i have one more day

and i don't know if this deserves a YAY!!!

~ab~

Summer's Here!!!

so i'll be home soon...

SOOO EXCITING!!!

but i hope that this summer will be the best ever...

i hope that i will be able to hang out with the friends that i have missed ever so much...

i hope that my friends will be more open minded and exciting...

i hope that they won't always put themselves first but maybe think about me and how i feel about things for a change...

i hope that they realize that the world doesn't revolve around them...

i hope that i can rebuild friendships and make other ones stronger...

i hope that i can switch my style up so that i can be the fashionista that is stuck inside of me...

i hope that the sunny days will lead to romantic nights...

i hope that we will have girl's nights, group nights, and fun nights...

i hope that tattoos will adorn my body before its all said and done...

i hope that all drama will cease...

but if it doesn't i'll be ready...

a little damage control is always fun...

i just hope that this summer will make memories that will be better than ever...

no drama, no tradgedies, no arguments, no falling out...

just fun, just memories, just friends and family, just awesomeness...

=]

~ab~

p.s. i did this for you...hope you happy now =]]]

PSA:Get @ Me

THIS A PUBLIC SERVICE ANNOUNCEMENT....

I WILL OFFICIALLY B BACK IN PG COME THURSDAY , MAY 7TH! THEREFORE ANY FAKENESS CAN BE HANDLED..GET ME? I WANT U 2 KNO THAT UR WACK! YOU GOT ALL THIS MOUTH OVER THE INTERNET..SO LEMME GET DOWN 2 UR LEVEL. U CAN'T BEAT ME..THE MOST YOU CAN BEAT IS MY DUDE'S MEAT..GET ME?? I CAN BANG W/1...BUT NOT YOU...UR A HOE..N NOT EVEN A GOOD 1...DNT TRY 2 PUT NOBDY OUT THERE IF U CAN'T BACK IT UP....U THOUGHT U WERE BAD...JUST KNO IM THE BADDEST....GET @ ME U DUMB SKUT! {GETERDNE}

Wats Dat? ........Philly Shopholic.????

TODAY WAS AWESOME!! I went along for a shopping adventure down Center City aka Walnut & Chestnut Street. With me came my roommate Taydra and my friend Angelo. Together we embarked on a mission..retail therapy. First we made a pit stop at VZW so that I could get my glyde software updated. BOY DO I LIKE IT! Afterwards, we hit the stores. Many stores...back-to-back. Our first task was to find dresses for our midnight...oops i mean...MOONLIGHT... cruise on friday...*sidebar* which i am please to announce that my wonderful love will be attending because I said so :)....*anywho* I found a cute black, white, and silver dress..that is also strapless. This is something AMAZING...due to my lack of wanting to dress up......my roommate got a cute little black dress and some heels. I also got a orange sundress that makes my look like the little native I am...and some sandals and purse and jewelry. Couldn't help but to get more jeans! (thats just me) O yea and a white cardigan! I spent sooo much time in H&M today it made no sense! Plus there are not one...BUT TWO H&Ms..one on each street....HOW AWESOME! The other stores visited are my little secret..hehe...My next purchase will be a gift for the love due to him leaving me in the teen years:( Well here are the pictures of the new editions to the wardrobe. P.S. I am going to find a Salvation Army to give half of my clothing to. I realize that I have to much...well you can't really have 2 much...*SMILEZ n GIGGLEZ*

SPRING is here!

Fav season of all time...spring! It brings me joy. I can't help it...I'm a spring baby. Now that the weather is nicer..especially here in Philly....its time to turn up the GG...ya hear me? hehe Anywho I will be embracing my newest style which is my innermost swag this weekend. I will be a shopaholic for a day. You wanna shop for great deals..come to my new Hood. The H&M is waayyy better than Annapolis Mall. Sauturday will be my day of release therapy. Style therapy :) So excited. Plus i gotta get a dress for my weekend next week. Temple's Midnight Cruise on the Spirit of Philadelphia. (maybe ill get a visit) So i gotta look my best for him;) I will be happy to report my findings on Sat nite. O HOW I LOVE SPRING!

134 miles

How can 1 be lonely, when they have one of the greatest {connect} anyone could possibly have? Basically it all comes down to the leading force. My heart is being stretched between the grimy streets of Philly, through the bareness of Deleware, to the harbor tunnels of Bmore, into the homeland. My heart is frantically beating for it wishes to be whole again. It's not complete without all of me. Loneliness is desperately stalking my heart as if it were the next months rent. My heart wishes to be RED and not green with envy because others are happily interwined with their others. They should really consider themselves to be lucky..because my luck has ran short. So everyday I go on as if everything is ok. I constantly just remind myself of a soon to come special day. A day when such loneliness will be a thing in da past...a figment of my imagination. 134 miles and waiting......